Personality Disorder Test Results

The details below were taken from http://similarminds.com/cgi-bin/newpd.pl
I do not own the said site.


I really like answering psychological tests. It is not only for fun, but I get to know myself better. Sometimes I'm aware of my mishaps, sometimes I'm not, that is why through these tests, I get closer to the truth of who I really am and try to change myself for the better (I hope I can :p)

And so, here is the result of my test:

Paranoid |||||||||||||| 54% 50% Schizoid |||||| 22% 40% Schizotypal |||||| 30% 56% Antisocial |||||||||||| 42% 46% Borderline |||||| 30% 45% Histrionic || 10% 35% Narcissistic |||||| 30% 40% Avoidant |||||||||| 38% 48% Dependent |||||||||| 38% 44% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 54% 45%

In the site, it stated there that the gray ones are the average web scores :D So I will focus on the ones wherein I am above average.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening; preoccupied with suspiciousness/paranoia. They are stuck between their need for others and their mistrust of others.

Well, as I said in my previous post, I do tend to treat other as threatening. It is like my defense mechanism, you know? But I guess too much is a bad thing, especially if I want to have a true friend, and be treated like one. Don't think too much, I don't go overboard like shooting someone I think is suspicious or anything. I just tend to avoid them, or at least, the people I think I should not trust.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency. Core issue is mental and behavioral rigidity/inflexibility. 


Whew. I am not really like that ^. Well, it was a test, so I guess I have to accept it? Although, I tend to want control and everything, but I am not really a perfectionist. Most of the time, whenever I am doing something, a project or a schoolwork, even though I see a wee bit mistake, I will not correct it. I always think that no one will notice. But I guess I want orderliness, but that doesn't mean I do it :)) I am not really orderly with my stuff and I let others do the cleaning or organizing for me (I am such a bad person ><) and when it is my turn to arrange things, I tend to lose them! Still, there is this competitive and ambitious side of me to always do my best and try not to make mistakes when it comes to acads (academics), especially in Math. I really get frustrated whenever I work hard on the subject and barely get a passing grade. Still, I love how I am challenged and it makes me feel satisfied and great that I accomplished something :D (I know I am being exaggerating, but please let me be. When it comes to math, even the bitsy things are celebrated) :D


If you want to know about the description of the other disorders, here they are:

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings; emotional zombies who stopped feeling due to trauma(s) and/or can't feel due to organic depression

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior; preoccupied with seeing themselves and/or the world as strange/odd

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others; Preoccupied with disdain/contempt for others and often a need for control/power over others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness. Core issue is an inability to regulate emotions.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered. Core issue is attention addiction.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships. Core issue is entitlement.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism. Core issue is an inability to resolve their codependent need for connection with their codependent fear of rejection and/or discomfort/anxiety around others.

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior. Core issue is the need to be parented by others (i.e. avoid growing up / becoming self-sufficient).

Racing Heartbeat

Last night, I wasn't able to sleep too well. When I felt the sleep in my eyes, I tried to sleep at around 12:30 am. But then I suddenly woke up feeling so much uneasiness. The first thing that came to my mind was I need to check my alarm so that I will be ready for the week. I don't want to make a bad impression about being late from the first week of discussion. But even after I have set my alarm, I have this nagging feeling that I can't quite understand. I wasn't sleepy anymore and when I checked the clock in my Itouch, it was around 2:50 am. What I did, I opened my laptop to search things on the net. Then I tried to check my phone. I was thinking of setting an alarm there too to have double alarms (I was that OC) when I accidentally switched to the stopwatch. I was shocked that the stopwatch was going on for about 49 mins. but I was asleep all those times. My phone was locked and it was pretty impossible that that will happen since I know that I am the only one who knows the code. I tried to check but everyone was asleep.

What is the explanation for that? I guess I'll never know. Instead of being spooked, I continued searching the net for random things until the people in my house started waking up. Talk about a mysterious dawn :p

Psychological Comic

Just so you know, I am a big fan of psychological stories. I like the way they twist my mind and think the unimaginable and explain the unexplained. Last night, I stumbled upon this cool comic. At first I thought that there will be horror sound effects and scrolling glitches like the one that I have encountered before that is why I was so careful on turning to the next panel. But if you do not like those kind of shocks, don't worry because this doesn't offer those kinds of things. It is just a plain comic which will make the hair on your back stand. ><

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/81kR4W/:19ergBCde:U.zLai_A/emcarroll.com/comics/faceallred/01.html/

The story is really cool. You should check it out :D It is called, "Face All Red".

Manny Pacquiao x Timothy Bradley

I know that this had been an ongoing issue for days. People want rematch in order to prove that the winner should have been the loser and vice versa. Now, here is my opinion - just leave it be. Most of the Pacman fans may be angry at me for saying this but I have my reasons to come up with this opinion:

1. It is just a game. In games, there will be losers and winners. In games, there will be the deserving and the undeserving. Everybody should be a sport and accept that the winner had been announced and that will never change since it is official.
2. The one at fault are not the judges but the rules. The rules are too loose. I think they have to change some things about the mechanics of the game and give more explanation. In my opinion, before the judges make the decision, they should have been given an hour or two hours to review the videos so that their minds would be refreshed and they would not focus on the latter of the game but the former as well.
3. A rematch will just mean more money for others. Yes, there have been claims that the game was fixed. And probably, that is true, even if there is only a small part of it. So, will you take the bait?
4. We should respect who became the winner. Oh c'mon. It was not like Pacman really won his last fight before Bradley, right? Some complained, but it was not much of an issue, enough for a rematch. Why is it that when the winner loses, the game was fixed? Pacman had his time in the limelight. The judges made the decision, don't blame Bradley for it.

Don't get me wrong. I am a fan of Pacman. But that doesn't mean that I have to be biased. These are only my opinions. Why don't you also voice out yours? :D

Personality Test

And so, I tried this personality test that I found in some random site. I have tried it before and I am pretty sure the results were the same. Here are the resuls:

My type is: ISFJ

Introverted - 56
Sensing - 38
Feeling - 38
Judging - 22


Qualitative Analysis of my type formula:

Moderately expressed introvert
- Oh, so I am an introvert? :)) actually, I do know that, myself. I am not comfortable in large crowds and am only comfortable with my set of friends. I only show my true self to those who I know can be trusted. It is ironic that I can become friends easily with someone (only one person), but when it comes to a group, I am having a little trouble. Even though I am an introvert, I make friends every now and then since it's interesting to meet different kinds of people especially in college :D

Moderately expressed sensing personality and Moderately expressed feeling personality
- Whenever tear-jerking moments are shown on my favorite TV dramas/ anime or read on my favorite books/manga, I always tend to cry. A lot. :)) Even though some say it is normal for someone to feel sympathy for the characters, sometimes I am annoyed at myself because I cry easily. Still, it is (I think) a good sign that I show sympathy easily. But it may get the better of me. However, it is better to show sympathy than never.
- Now, I am not sure what the difference between sensing and feeling are, but those are my thoughts above :))

Slightly expressed judging personality
- To some, this may be a negative. But to me, it is a positive :D Nowadays, it is hard to trust other people. I have encountered a lot of people who I can easily trust. But I have also encountered those that I should never had trusted. Because of those experiences, I tend to put my guard up (but not really :)) maybe that's why it is only "slightly"). Especially now that I am a college student, I have to be sure of who to trust and who to not.


If you want to try the same personality test, you can visit this site http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1tGYTC/:b-V@KhPc:Y@yZSfQt/www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp/
I do not own that site and just stumbled upon it :D

The Infernal Devices = A Tale of Two Cities???

This post may contain spoilers.

Okay, so I was reading "Clockwork Prince", a book from the series, "The Infernal Devices" because I could not sleep (obviously from what time it is). Earlier, I read this for my English I assignment about the difference between good and bad writing which I both took from the said book. I just continued where I left off. Then I noticed that in the beginning of the book, a quote from Charles Dickens' "A Tale of Two Cities" was stated. I remember encountering the same book over and over again from the first book of the series, Clockwork Angel (the book connected the two main characters). Because of that, I decided to Google it up.

I have tried this before in the first book, but did not make much connection. But because of the marriage between Jem and Tessa, I realized that the story may end up like ATOTC!!! >< However, as I wrote this post, it dawned upon me that the marriage may not come fort and Will may be the one who will marry Tessa. Or maybe, the author will make a twist and do the exact opposite of what my first conclusion was - that even though Jem and Tessa will get married, Jem may be the one who will sacrifice his love for Tessa. This is gonna make my head explode and I am seriously looking forward to a happy ending (so that Jem will be mine :))) but that will never happen in real life T.T ) I am really looking forward to the conclusion of this story! >< I hope that the author won't blow it with a crappy ending ><

PS: The Mortal Instruments Series should have been left off. Six books are way too many for a readers' interest - but that is only my opinion :D.

Math Procrastination

Hey ya'll! :D It hasn't been long since I posted here. Maybe when you are new in this, the posts keep on coming but once you get the hang of it, the number of posts everyday will slowly go down. I tried making blogs before but end up not continuing them because I wanted to write different topics (wherein the blog I made was for a specific one only) and I get bored of them quite easily. I hope that now I have somewhat (and I mean somewhat) matured, I will continue what I have started :D

Anyway, the above title is true ^. I am writing on this blog because of my procrastination issues. I thought to myself that now that I am in college, I will do my best to work hard so that I will have a good future. I don't know why, but every time I am about to do school works, I feel this tiresome feeling and get sluggish that I want to go to bed and lie down for 1, 2, 3 days :))

The reason why I am procrastinating and is worried about it also is because I am not (NOT) good in mathematics. When I was in grade school (elementary, for other countries), I really liked math. I liked the way it challenges me to find the answer to certain problems. There are different ways, but as long as you find the answer that you are looking for, all's good. But now, even though there are a lot more solutions, I can't seem to find the right one T.T I don't understand it, but I am really struggling in math. I have struggled so much in high school that sometimes, I cried myself to sleep because of the latter (no exaggerations. I was grade conscious and seeing my hard work was all for nothing really got me down).

I remember last year, during the time that I was really pressured by math, someone joked to me that I was "bobo" (which means idiot) in math. It really hurt me because I had been working hard (to no avail) that I cried silently to sleep. Whenever math is brought up, I get all sensitive about it.

Last week in my university, we started studying something light, something that even a grade school can do. But since it is college, and I am not attending just any college, I knew that there was more to it than that and I will see it by the time quizzes and long exams will be given out (my hearts is racing right now. I am scaring myself :)) ). I really lack confidence but I hope that I will gain them in college.

Last night, I was really bothered about this that I can't go to sleep. I tried searching the net through my Itouch  on ways how to be good in math. There were articles of advice and what not to do. I also searched about the record-breaker summa cum laude of our school and because of this, a blog caught my attention.

It was said in his blog that he studied at the college that I am studying at right now. He was a graduate, and now, he is taking his Master's Degree all over the world, like London for example. He talked about being a BS Mathematics graduate but struggled in math because no matter how much he practiced, he never became better in math just like the summa cum laude who claimed that practicing makes perfect because that was what the he did and he was not born a mathematician. But I thought, if his practicing was not a success, how come he graduated from a course which majored in math? In conclusion about that, I think he tried his best and had his fair share of success but he did not realize that because he kept on comparing himself to those who are better than them. What he did, as a graduate, was enough proof that he is a great mathematician.

Well, so much for that :)) I hope later, I will have the drive to study math. I want to be good in math too T.T Our professor for discussion (lecture = large class; discussion = big class) is the record-breaker summa cum laude (searching about him was not a random thought) so I am really nervous because he may think that I am a complete idiot T.T But I hope this year, I will prove something to myself about the subject. It is a really good thing that I have friends who are willing to help me :DDD You know who you are, and thanks to you! :D (though I don't think you will ever read this blog :)) ).