Personality Disorder Test Results

The details below were taken from http://similarminds.com/cgi-bin/newpd.pl
I do not own the said site.


I really like answering psychological tests. It is not only for fun, but I get to know myself better. Sometimes I'm aware of my mishaps, sometimes I'm not, that is why through these tests, I get closer to the truth of who I really am and try to change myself for the better (I hope I can :p)

And so, here is the result of my test:

Paranoid |||||||||||||| 54% 50% Schizoid |||||| 22% 40% Schizotypal |||||| 30% 56% Antisocial |||||||||||| 42% 46% Borderline |||||| 30% 45% Histrionic || 10% 35% Narcissistic |||||| 30% 40% Avoidant |||||||||| 38% 48% Dependent |||||||||| 38% 44% Obsessive-Compulsive |||||||||||||| 54% 45%

In the site, it stated there that the gray ones are the average web scores :D So I will focus on the ones wherein I am above average.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening; preoccupied with suspiciousness/paranoia. They are stuck between their need for others and their mistrust of others.

Well, as I said in my previous post, I do tend to treat other as threatening. It is like my defense mechanism, you know? But I guess too much is a bad thing, especially if I want to have a true friend, and be treated like one. Don't think too much, I don't go overboard like shooting someone I think is suspicious or anything. I just tend to avoid them, or at least, the people I think I should not trust.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency. Core issue is mental and behavioral rigidity/inflexibility. 


Whew. I am not really like that ^. Well, it was a test, so I guess I have to accept it? Although, I tend to want control and everything, but I am not really a perfectionist. Most of the time, whenever I am doing something, a project or a schoolwork, even though I see a wee bit mistake, I will not correct it. I always think that no one will notice. But I guess I want orderliness, but that doesn't mean I do it :)) I am not really orderly with my stuff and I let others do the cleaning or organizing for me (I am such a bad person ><) and when it is my turn to arrange things, I tend to lose them! Still, there is this competitive and ambitious side of me to always do my best and try not to make mistakes when it comes to acads (academics), especially in Math. I really get frustrated whenever I work hard on the subject and barely get a passing grade. Still, I love how I am challenged and it makes me feel satisfied and great that I accomplished something :D (I know I am being exaggerating, but please let me be. When it comes to math, even the bitsy things are celebrated) :D


If you want to know about the description of the other disorders, here they are:

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings; emotional zombies who stopped feeling due to trauma(s) and/or can't feel due to organic depression

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior; preoccupied with seeing themselves and/or the world as strange/odd

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others; Preoccupied with disdain/contempt for others and often a need for control/power over others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness. Core issue is an inability to regulate emotions.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered. Core issue is attention addiction.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships. Core issue is entitlement.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism. Core issue is an inability to resolve their codependent need for connection with their codependent fear of rejection and/or discomfort/anxiety around others.

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior. Core issue is the need to be parented by others (i.e. avoid growing up / becoming self-sufficient).

Racing Heartbeat

Last night, I wasn't able to sleep too well. When I felt the sleep in my eyes, I tried to sleep at around 12:30 am. But then I suddenly woke up feeling so much uneasiness. The first thing that came to my mind was I need to check my alarm so that I will be ready for the week. I don't want to make a bad impression about being late from the first week of discussion. But even after I have set my alarm, I have this nagging feeling that I can't quite understand. I wasn't sleepy anymore and when I checked the clock in my Itouch, it was around 2:50 am. What I did, I opened my laptop to search things on the net. Then I tried to check my phone. I was thinking of setting an alarm there too to have double alarms (I was that OC) when I accidentally switched to the stopwatch. I was shocked that the stopwatch was going on for about 49 mins. but I was asleep all those times. My phone was locked and it was pretty impossible that that will happen since I know that I am the only one who knows the code. I tried to check but everyone was asleep.

What is the explanation for that? I guess I'll never know. Instead of being spooked, I continued searching the net for random things until the people in my house started waking up. Talk about a mysterious dawn :p

Psychological Comic

Just so you know, I am a big fan of psychological stories. I like the way they twist my mind and think the unimaginable and explain the unexplained. Last night, I stumbled upon this cool comic. At first I thought that there will be horror sound effects and scrolling glitches like the one that I have encountered before that is why I was so careful on turning to the next panel. But if you do not like those kind of shocks, don't worry because this doesn't offer those kinds of things. It is just a plain comic which will make the hair on your back stand. ><

http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/81kR4W/:19ergBCde:U.zLai_A/emcarroll.com/comics/faceallred/01.html/

The story is really cool. You should check it out :D It is called, "Face All Red".

Manny Pacquiao x Timothy Bradley

I know that this had been an ongoing issue for days. People want rematch in order to prove that the winner should have been the loser and vice versa. Now, here is my opinion - just leave it be. Most of the Pacman fans may be angry at me for saying this but I have my reasons to come up with this opinion:

1. It is just a game. In games, there will be losers and winners. In games, there will be the deserving and the undeserving. Everybody should be a sport and accept that the winner had been announced and that will never change since it is official.
2. The one at fault are not the judges but the rules. The rules are too loose. I think they have to change some things about the mechanics of the game and give more explanation. In my opinion, before the judges make the decision, they should have been given an hour or two hours to review the videos so that their minds would be refreshed and they would not focus on the latter of the game but the former as well.
3. A rematch will just mean more money for others. Yes, there have been claims that the game was fixed. And probably, that is true, even if there is only a small part of it. So, will you take the bait?
4. We should respect who became the winner. Oh c'mon. It was not like Pacman really won his last fight before Bradley, right? Some complained, but it was not much of an issue, enough for a rematch. Why is it that when the winner loses, the game was fixed? Pacman had his time in the limelight. The judges made the decision, don't blame Bradley for it.

Don't get me wrong. I am a fan of Pacman. But that doesn't mean that I have to be biased. These are only my opinions. Why don't you also voice out yours? :D

Personality Test

And so, I tried this personality test that I found in some random site. I have tried it before and I am pretty sure the results were the same. Here are the resuls:

My type is: ISFJ

Introverted - 56
Sensing - 38
Feeling - 38
Judging - 22


Qualitative Analysis of my type formula:

Moderately expressed introvert
- Oh, so I am an introvert? :)) actually, I do know that, myself. I am not comfortable in large crowds and am only comfortable with my set of friends. I only show my true self to those who I know can be trusted. It is ironic that I can become friends easily with someone (only one person), but when it comes to a group, I am having a little trouble. Even though I am an introvert, I make friends every now and then since it's interesting to meet different kinds of people especially in college :D

Moderately expressed sensing personality and Moderately expressed feeling personality
- Whenever tear-jerking moments are shown on my favorite TV dramas/ anime or read on my favorite books/manga, I always tend to cry. A lot. :)) Even though some say it is normal for someone to feel sympathy for the characters, sometimes I am annoyed at myself because I cry easily. Still, it is (I think) a good sign that I show sympathy easily. But it may get the better of me. However, it is better to show sympathy than never.
- Now, I am not sure what the difference between sensing and feeling are, but those are my thoughts above :))

Slightly expressed judging personality
- To some, this may be a negative. But to me, it is a positive :D Nowadays, it is hard to trust other people. I have encountered a lot of people who I can easily trust. But I have also encountered those that I should never had trusted. Because of those experiences, I tend to put my guard up (but not really :)) maybe that's why it is only "slightly"). Especially now that I am a college student, I have to be sure of who to trust and who to not.


If you want to try the same personality test, you can visit this site http://www.stumbleupon.com/su/1tGYTC/:b-V@KhPc:Y@yZSfQt/www.humanmetrics.com/cgi-win/JTypes2.asp/
I do not own that site and just stumbled upon it :D

The Infernal Devices = A Tale of Two Cities???

This post may contain spoilers.

Okay, so I was reading "Clockwork Prince", a book from the series, "The Infernal Devices" because I could not sleep (obviously from what time it is). Earlier, I read this for my English I assignment about the difference between good and bad writing which I both took from the said book. I just continued where I left off. Then I noticed that in the beginning of the book, a quote from Charles Dickens' "A Tale of Two Cities" was stated. I remember encountering the same book over and over again from the first book of the series, Clockwork Angel (the book connected the two main characters). Because of that, I decided to Google it up.

I have tried this before in the first book, but did not make much connection. But because of the marriage between Jem and Tessa, I realized that the story may end up like ATOTC!!! >< However, as I wrote this post, it dawned upon me that the marriage may not come fort and Will may be the one who will marry Tessa. Or maybe, the author will make a twist and do the exact opposite of what my first conclusion was - that even though Jem and Tessa will get married, Jem may be the one who will sacrifice his love for Tessa. This is gonna make my head explode and I am seriously looking forward to a happy ending (so that Jem will be mine :))) but that will never happen in real life T.T ) I am really looking forward to the conclusion of this story! >< I hope that the author won't blow it with a crappy ending ><

PS: The Mortal Instruments Series should have been left off. Six books are way too many for a readers' interest - but that is only my opinion :D.

Math Procrastination

Hey ya'll! :D It hasn't been long since I posted here. Maybe when you are new in this, the posts keep on coming but once you get the hang of it, the number of posts everyday will slowly go down. I tried making blogs before but end up not continuing them because I wanted to write different topics (wherein the blog I made was for a specific one only) and I get bored of them quite easily. I hope that now I have somewhat (and I mean somewhat) matured, I will continue what I have started :D

Anyway, the above title is true ^. I am writing on this blog because of my procrastination issues. I thought to myself that now that I am in college, I will do my best to work hard so that I will have a good future. I don't know why, but every time I am about to do school works, I feel this tiresome feeling and get sluggish that I want to go to bed and lie down for 1, 2, 3 days :))

The reason why I am procrastinating and is worried about it also is because I am not (NOT) good in mathematics. When I was in grade school (elementary, for other countries), I really liked math. I liked the way it challenges me to find the answer to certain problems. There are different ways, but as long as you find the answer that you are looking for, all's good. But now, even though there are a lot more solutions, I can't seem to find the right one T.T I don't understand it, but I am really struggling in math. I have struggled so much in high school that sometimes, I cried myself to sleep because of the latter (no exaggerations. I was grade conscious and seeing my hard work was all for nothing really got me down).

I remember last year, during the time that I was really pressured by math, someone joked to me that I was "bobo" (which means idiot) in math. It really hurt me because I had been working hard (to no avail) that I cried silently to sleep. Whenever math is brought up, I get all sensitive about it.

Last week in my university, we started studying something light, something that even a grade school can do. But since it is college, and I am not attending just any college, I knew that there was more to it than that and I will see it by the time quizzes and long exams will be given out (my hearts is racing right now. I am scaring myself :)) ). I really lack confidence but I hope that I will gain them in college.

Last night, I was really bothered about this that I can't go to sleep. I tried searching the net through my Itouch  on ways how to be good in math. There were articles of advice and what not to do. I also searched about the record-breaker summa cum laude of our school and because of this, a blog caught my attention.

It was said in his blog that he studied at the college that I am studying at right now. He was a graduate, and now, he is taking his Master's Degree all over the world, like London for example. He talked about being a BS Mathematics graduate but struggled in math because no matter how much he practiced, he never became better in math just like the summa cum laude who claimed that practicing makes perfect because that was what the he did and he was not born a mathematician. But I thought, if his practicing was not a success, how come he graduated from a course which majored in math? In conclusion about that, I think he tried his best and had his fair share of success but he did not realize that because he kept on comparing himself to those who are better than them. What he did, as a graduate, was enough proof that he is a great mathematician.

Well, so much for that :)) I hope later, I will have the drive to study math. I want to be good in math too T.T Our professor for discussion (lecture = large class; discussion = big class) is the record-breaker summa cum laude (searching about him was not a random thought) so I am really nervous because he may think that I am a complete idiot T.T But I hope this year, I will prove something to myself about the subject. It is a really good thing that I have friends who are willing to help me :DDD You know who you are, and thanks to you! :D (though I don't think you will ever read this blog :)) ).

Korean Drama that I Want to Watch (June)

Even if workloads are inevitable anytime soon, I still want to watch more Korean Dramas >< That is what I did over the summer and that is what I still want to do. It is a shame that school has just started. And I am a freshie so I need to work hard to make a good impression I guess? :)) Although, some of my upperclassmen said that freshie is the time to relax in college, I still want to try my best :D But really, these urges to watch korean dramas keep on coming T.T

Next summer, I want to watch these shows that are airing this month:

http://www.koreandrama.org/?p=18411

A Gentleman's Dignity

I am not into middle-aged men, but I am quite interested in how this story will progress. It has respectable ratings in Korea which all the more caught my eye.

http://www.koreandrama.org/?p=18405

Time Slip Dr. Jin

The truth is, I only want to watch this because of the hottie, Kim Jaejoong (waaaahhh!!!!) :)) Ever since I discovered him because of Yoochun in SBS Rooftop Prince (they were in the same kpop group), I've been obsessing over him (but not really the stalker-much-kind-of thing = guilty :)) ) If you are wondering what he looks like, he is the one below:

(Isn't he so cute with his pouty-sinister look? :)) )

http://www.koreandrama.org/?p=18431

Ghost

At first, I thought that this was about the supernatural (which I love but not so much if it's the real thing), but when I read the synopsis, it was really different from that. Even though it was not what I was hoping for, I would still like to watch it because of the rating. Let me see why the netizens liked it :D

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This is a not-so-off topic, but I would like to recommend some of my favorites that I have watched last summer. :D Please check them out if you have time. If you have watched them, tell me what you thought about them :D

Dream High

At first, I thought that Dream High was another Glee-like drama so I did not bother to watch it when my friend recommended it to me when it first aired (I even teased her about it, much to her annoyance). But when I gave in because of the high ratings and good reviews, I realized that this was one of the best korean drama series out there! You'll never regret watching this! :D Hyemi is so (and I mean sssoooooo..oo) cute!!! :D And the cutest of them all (for me, at least) is Sam Dong! :)) There is more to this than the music and it was what got me going :D

The Moon that Embraces the Sun  /  The Moon Embracing the Sun

Truthfully, the reason why I watched this was because of Kim Soohyun who played Sam Dong in Dream High :)) But seriously, this drama is no laughing matter. If you are in for the drama, this is the one for you. Although for those who are pacifists and hematophobics out there, beware. And for those who are not, get in it for the gore! :)) But not really :)) It depicts the life of the ancient times in Korea and how the love of the two separated couple struggled and grew into a stronger and more beautiful one. Romance is not the only thing that is interesting here, but also the mystery that is depicted. This got a 40% average ranking, so I don't think you will be disappointed as I was not :DDD

Rooftop Prince

The poster might be silly and a real turn-off, but the comedy is priceless! You will understand why/how that ^ happened :)) It had its fair share of comedy and drama which are well-balanced and each characters matured in each episode. I liked the way how none of the characters are left off even though each episode had different topics. What really got me hooked up in this was how the writers, directors and producers created each episode to be precise. It is obvious that there were no filler episodes! Each and every one of the latter were essential to the progression of the story! Just like the second suggestion, this also depicted a mystery between death and betrayal. If you are looking for a romance-mystery-drama-comedy korean drama, this is for you! :D

Kimi ni Todoke Chapter 69

This is somewhat a spoiler because I will share my insights upon the subject.

I think that this chapter is really interesting. Finally, a Ryu x Chizuru moment! I have been waiting for this for a long time! >< It is a real shame that I have not been updated about manga and anime for so long :( I was so busy with school work and I spent my summer watching asian movies and dramas online and playing The Sims 3. It feels really good to read a chapter that you have been wanting to read :DDD

I really like this chapter (about the Ryu x Chizuru part). I once had a thought that there will be no hope for them. The two of them were with each other for so long that they seem more like siblings than a couple >< But they were my favorite (and still my favorite) pairing. It is a good thing that the author did not fail me (and the other fans)! :D Good to know that there will be a love story coming from their side :D

About the main characters (Kazehaya x Sawako), their story is cute, but not as interesting (for me). I mean, it was really cute at first, the girl liking the guy from afar, the guy doing whatever it takes just to get the attention of the girl because he obliviously (well, from the point of view of the girl) likes her back. It may seem mainstream and a stereotypical story for some of you, but when you get to read it, you will feel that there is more to it than that. Anyway, it is not only about romance but friendship as well (sometimes, it melts my heart :D ). The atmosphere that it gives off and the personality and development of the characters truly inspire and interest me. It is just a shame that that feeling is dropping, but it is still there.

I will always remember the parts wherein Kazehaya was struggling for Sawako to understand his feelings. In this chapter, it is her turn for him to understand hers. Maybe that is one reason why my love of their part of the story is decreasing. I am a feminist, and I am not proud of it. Oh well. Anyway, I like the way Pin gives advice to both on different time on the same accounts. I guess all's fair in love since Kazehaya did his part, it is Sawako's turn to do hers next. Still I would like for more Kazehaya's cute struggling-in-love moments (evil laughter) :))).

All in all, the overall story is still nice and worth the effort of waiting for a month for every chapter. But what really drives me to read this is, again, the Ryu x Chizuru couple!!! :D

Hopefully, next time, I will see some Kent x Ayane moments too :D Personally, I don't like Pin for Ayane T.T Still, he is a pretty good guy; not boyfriend material though. Haha. :))

First Post. Nothing to do here.

I do not really know how this works. Well, I wanted to start my own blog because most of my friends have one. I'm not up to the trend, but I don't want the idea of being left behind. Exploring is a great way to help in my maturity (I think) and reading and writing blogs may be a way for me to broaden my horizons (maybe).


Furthermore, I did not want to have a blog just because of my friends. Another reason is that I want to share my insights and thoughts about the certain topics. I am a dormer (which is kind of lonely at times) and college life is pretty tough (well, I have just tasted a pint of it this week (I'm pretty sure "pint" is a wrong word to use, help me out here)) and staying with people you don't know much tend to be awkward and boring (I'm living with two other people in my dorm). Though I will need a lot of time to study, I guess I will also have a lot of time to spare for myself (that I do not know how to/where to use).

In conclusion, I hope that I will be welcomed in the blogging community. Peace :D


(the above image is not from me. I just found it from a random site and uploaded it here because I find it cute :D)